Category: ~Ramblings~

Tick Tock

This has got to be the hardest thing that I have ever done… This… doing nothing…

Just sitting around and waiting. Waiting until you are ready. Waiting until we are in the same place, same time. Waiting for the right conditions…

 

 

I WANT TO SCREAM!!! I AM READY!! 

 

 

‘Patience is a virtue’, they say…

 

‘Fuck patience’, I say.

 

I know what I want and I want now!!!

originally written Feb 12, 2008 12:43 AM

I’ve Got This…

I’ve got this feelin like I can’t breathe

And this

Sensation like my heart has stopped .

I have these

Thoughts that my world is ending

Can’t think right

Cause my

Breath is racing.

Can’t see straight

Cause my

Head is pounding. 

Happy thoughts

Turned into

Crushed emotions 

Daylight changed to dancing shadows

Trust is now a mere memory

Future plans turned to dust

Love for me overpowered by lust

For her

The enemy!

When it should be

You and me

Destiny

Or so we thought…

But I won’t shed another tear 

And I

Won’t reveal another fear 

BecauseTHAT THAT DOESN’T KILL ME, CAN ONLY MAKE ME STRONGER!

originally written

Feb 7, 2008 10:21 PM

Hater- Lover

So much talk about being "blind to the haters", but just remember that when u lose one sense the others are heighten….

Though u may be blind, you can hear them even more! If you were actually blind, you would not see, and therefore not acknowledge them…

Luckily for me, EVERYONE and they ma loves me!!!

P.S. INDRA BROOKS, I TIRED A TELLING YA ASS AIN NO ONE HATE YOU!!! I MEAN SERIOUSLY!! HOW COULD THEY???

 

Originally written on September 23

~Cast The First Stone~

Everyone’s out here just watching and waiting and plotting on my trip to hell… All I can tell u let he without sin cast the first stone!!!!

You!! Yeah you!! Just sitting right there passing judgement on me? Who are u?? Insignificant, small minded mere humans? Tired of your mundane lives and the monotony that goes along with it? Huh!! You talking about my life and what I am doing cause it gives u a break from thinking about how pedestrian and ordinary you are?

You tell me to think about how YOU feel? I am childish and selfish and an abomination unto God, YOU say!! So what are u? SAINT? When u point that finger there are 3 more pointing back at you!! Ppl in glass houses ought not throw stones!!

Only GOD can Judge me!!! And only he I will have to answer to!! Condemn me to hell if you must!! But I will see your hypocritic ass right there!!!

To My Sunshine: Asa Legare McMillan Williams

BABY I love you! I do! More than I can say. I am an ass for not being with u earlier. You have been my rock, MY PILLAR of strength. my confidante! So many things and more have you been to me, without a complaint! No matter how difficult I became u were always there for me. You always had my back. Baby I love u and thank u for everything! I love u with every fiber of me!

Its Been Too Long

My goodness….Oh How I have missed this…I never seem to have time to sit and think and run on anymore…So many things to be said, so little time to say it.
 
Well I am in Provo now, I have been here from Friday…Midterms and all….My Future husband,  Mr. Kahsheriff A’Ray Munnings Douglas..The one in da pics, spent a week in Turks and Caicos with me…. I love him…I really do, and it was kinda hard to adjust to being around him that much, but I grew to appreciate it…I love you baby and thank you for coming to spend time with me. I know I acted like a bitch (in more ways than one) occasionally, but thank you for putting up with me!!
 
My family is simply awesome dread…I love each and everyone of them immensely!!! Dread I am so blessed with such an abundance of love that it isn’t even comprehensible!!! My best friend and I had a falling out of sorts…I apparently hurt her feelings…Anyway I ain feel like talking about that…
 
On Friday night, we (Dommie, Devon, Nicky, Niecey, Monique, Kahsheriff, Adrain, Chris, Asa and urs truly) hit the strips….Word of advice, Too many dudes out together with too much alcohol in their system just ain sense!!! No more rum fah nun a yall niggas!!! If them dudes ain had to avoid like three fights with the same stupid ass dude that night, then it wasn’t one…I know I is a chick and all but  I woulda thrown a blow or two!!! Can’t have ppl messin with muh niggas!!!
 
Anyways I NEEDS a shower…So I am outta here!!!

Update

I really don’t even know what to write in this thing right now….And that is SOOO unlike me…I mean my life is REALLY uncomplicated right now. I am not thinking about ne thing major…School is great… I am getttin used to living in GT… I haven’t even been crying about it… Me and my best friend are getting along splendidly. SHe cooks, I eat. She wakes me up for breakfast in the morning. DREAD I LOVE that child!!!
 
NE WAY Physics is REALLY difficult. It is kicking my ass. But I will survive…I ain never failed a class yet and by damn now ain’t the time to start…