Dear John…

As far back as I can remember you were there for me to comfort me, to make me happy, to keep me company when my sister thought she was too old to play dolls with me. I remember creating some of my happiest memories and finding my most favorite people and places in your arms. I craved the feel and smell I laughed when you laughed and cried when you cried, I was afraid and angry and excited all at your whim. I really thought that our love would transcend time and space, but I was wrong.

I took you too seriously, I was forced to think about you on levels that, quite frankly, I wish not to. I was made to take apart your layers, to undress you and assign traits to you that I don’t find particularly enjoyable, nor meaningful, and  I am not especially good at. I took you too literally when in fact you should be all metaphors and allusions and other things that makes me cringe to think about now. Maybe that time you made me laugh it would have been more appropriate to cry, or shout in outrage or some other such nonsense. Just maybe when you spoke of your love for birds it was really about Jesus or that one time your mother sang to you before bedtime and not about birds at all.

I love you, more than almost anything else in the world. You brought so much meaning to my tiny, limited world, you took me to places and times that I could never hope to get to without you. You taught me things I would never learn otherwise, things I would not even know that I didn’t know. For that, for changing me, for letting me live through you, I will remain eternally grateful and indebted to you.

However, as of late, you have brought me nothing but anxiety when I even think about you. Instead of the joy, ecstasy and longing I once had when we were together, I get nervous and feel my heart race. And it is not because of some new story you are telling me. The very thought of you now incites dread. This has become to difficult. You are not a thing to be trifled with casually, this relationship has lost its ease. Being with you has become a an insidious task. I can’t take you at your word, I can’t trust your lines. I have to examine you for double and triple meaning and it leaves me wondering if this whole thing has been a lie. No longer do I find you to be a safe haven, you are no longer my refuge and my solace but instead you have been turned into the very thing that my nightmares are made of.

I love you so much, but this relationship is not working out. We were not meant to engage in this type of affair. This is what I get for allowing my sweetheart to assume the role as husband. You have become difficult and often unexciting. Getting to know you on this level has not made me happy, it has not made me excited, it has filled me with dread and I fear, that progressing in this way will make me despise you.You, my first love, my happiness, my sadness, my outrage, my adventure, my comfort, my once best friend. We were better then, when things were casual and easy.

I will not mourn you, but instead I will love you in my own way. I will love you unaffected by how other people think I should love you. I may not scrutinize you closely, nor may I see a million alternate meanings in your eyes but I promise I will someday find enjoyment in you again. And to do this we must part ways.

You will forever hold a special place in my heart and I hope that we can become the great friends we once were before all of this happened!

With fondest memories


Us, in better times
Us, in better times
Us, in better times…

George Orwell’s “1984”

I know I am a little behind the eighth ball here. I am reading this much later than many of my other English Literature counterparts, but better late than never right?

I came across this quote in this “1984” and I find it amazing how, like “Animal Farm” Orwell’s novels are still so incredibly pertinent. The grimy, dirty world of politics has never changed. Rather only the faces of the politicians. Taking another quote from chapter five

“In a way, the world-view of the Party imposed itself most successfully on people incapable of understanding it. They could be made to accept the most flagrant violations of reality, because they never fully grasped the enormity of what was demanded of them, and were not sufficiently interested in public events to notice what was happening. By lack of understanding they remained sane. They simply swallowed everything, and what they swallowed did them no harm, because it left no residue behind, just as a grain of corn will pass undigested through the body of a bird.”

I am quite aware that we are not living in a dystopian society, but people never do see the big picture especially when it comes to politics. Its all very emotional and we refuse to look at the overall effect of these decisions made today. We also get all of our “news” from propaganda websites, tv stations and facebook pages instead of investigating these claims independently.

Ok, I don’t want to make this too political ( though it is quite hard to do considering the topic), I just want to share this quote!


Orwell 1984 quote

Getting into this Summer Reading

After having a conversation with some of my friends about summer reading I decided to visit the lieberry to get some of the books on my list.

Book learnin'

I began Orwell’s “1984” on an e-reader at the beginning of summer, but I lost interest because of the format. But now, I’ve got a real, live book where I can turn pages.

I’ve read a great deal of books this summer. I probably met the 25 book quota, mostly trashy, frivolous novels like “The Fifty Shades of Grey” trilogy.

Time to get into serious reading mode. Something to make me think in time for back to school. Well, in between those guilty reads of course. Can’t be serious all the time!

100 Books to Read Before You Die Reading Project 2012

A few months ago I made a post entitled 100 to Read Before You Die. I had read only 27 out of the 100 books (well it turns out that I had read 28 as I had overlooked the fact that I had read some books by Enid Blyton whose titles I did not remember.) With that being said, I am going to attempt to make it through this entire list by December 31st 2012. I will have to do a majority of this reading during summer because I have enough reading to do in school.

I am, however, going to attempt this by starting off with George Orwell’s “1984” and Joseph Heller’s “Catch 22”. I can find those easily enough on Kindle. I will keep a log of the books that I have gotten through along with my reviews.

100 Books to Read Before You Die…

I LOVE reading. I love it old-fashioned too. I love the scent of books, the way the pages feel against my skin, the way that I am able to take them anywhere and give them away and get them so freely. I always get excited when I see one of my favorite books have been turned into a movie, then slightly disappointed because there are just some things that a book can not convey no matter how hard it tries. I have always wanted to post one of these lists to tick of the ones that I have read, and also to get some new reading material.

1 Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen [X]

2 The Lord of the Rings Trilogy – JRR Tolkien [X]

3 Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte [X]

4 Harry Potter series – JK Rowling [X]

5 To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee [X]

6 The Bible – (How much of it do I have to read to say I read it… Cause I’m not gonna read the entire thing!)

7 Wuthering Heights – Emily Bronte [X]

8 Nineteen Eighty Four – George Orwell

9 His Dark Materials – Philip Pullman

10 Great Expectations – Charles Dickens [X]

11 Little Women – Louisa M Alcott [X]

12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles – Thomas Hardy

13 Catch 22 – Joseph Heller

14 Complete Works of Shakespeare

15 Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier

16 The Hobbit – JRR Tolkien

17 Birdsong – Sebastian Faulk

18 Catcher in the Rye – JD Salinger

19 The Time Traveler’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger

20 Middlemarch – George Eliot

21 Gone With The Wind – Margaret Mitchell [X]

22 The Great Gatsby – F Scott Fitzgerald

23 Bleak House – Charles Dickens

24 War and Peace – Leo Tolstoy [X]

25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams (I have this, need to get around to reading it.)

27 Crime and Punishment – Fyodor Dostoyevsky

28 Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck

29 Alice in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll [X]

30 The Wind in the Willows – Kenneth Grahame [X]

31 Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy (I know I started it, I don’t remember finishing it.)

32 David Copperfield – Charles Dickens [X]

33 Chronicles of Narnia – CS Lewis [X]

34 Emma – Jane Austen

35 Persuasion – Jane Austen

36 The Iliad – Homer

37 The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini

38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis De Bernieres

39 Memoirs of a Geisha – Arthur Golden

40 Winnie the Pooh – AA Milne

41 Animal Farm – George Orwell [X]

42 The Da Vinci Code – Dan Brown [X]

43 One Hundred Years of Solitude – Gabriel Garcia Marquez

44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney – John Irving

45 The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins

46 Anne of Green Gables – LM Montgomery [X]

47 Far From The Madding Crowd – Thomas Hardy

48 The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood

49 Lord of the Flies – William Golding [X] I hated the movie, hated the book even more

50 Atonement – Ian McEwan

51 Life of Pi – Yann Martel

52 Dune – Frank Herbert

53 Cold Comfort Farm – Stella Gibbons

54 Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen

55 A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth

56 The Shadow of the Wind – Carlos Ruiz Zafon

57 A Tale Of Two Cities – Charles Dickens [X]

58 Brave New World – Aldous Huxley

59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night – Mark Haddon

60 Love In The Time Of Cholera – Gabriel Garcia Marquez

61 Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck (Started reading this… Twice.)

62 Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov

63 The Secret History – Donna Tartt

64 The Lovely Bones – Alice Sebold

65 Count of Monte Cristo – Alexandre Dumas [X]

66 On The Road – Jack Kerouac

67 Jude the Obscure – Thomas Hardy

68 Bridget Jones’s Diary – Helen Fielding

69 Midnight’s Children – Salman Rushdie

70 Moby Dick – Herman Melville [X[

71 Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens [X]

72 Dracula – Bram Stoker

73 The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett [X]

74 Notes From A Small Island – Bill Bryson

75 Ulysses – James Joyce

76 The Inferno – Dante

77 Swallows and Amazons – Arthur Ransome

78 Germinal – Emile Zola

79 Vanity Fair – William Makepeace Thackeray

80 Possession – AS Byatt

81 A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens [X]

82 Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell

83 The Color Purple – Alice Walker [X]

84 The Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro

85 Madame Bovary – Gustave Flaubert

86 A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry

87 Charlotte’s Web – EB White

88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven – Mitch Albom

89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle [X]

90 The Faraway Tree Collection – Enid Blyton

91 Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad

92 The Little Prince – Antoine De Saint-Exupery

93 The Wasp Factory – Iain Banks

94 Watership Down – Richard Adams

95 A Confederacy of Dunces – John Kennedy Toole

96 A Town Like Alice – Nevil Shute

97 The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas [X]

98 Hamlet – William Shakespeare

99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory – Roald Dahl

100 Les Miserables – Victor Hugo

Apparently, I’ve only read 27… I have many of these classics downloaded to an app on my iPod, but reading a 7oo page novel on a tiny device just doesn’t do it for me. I have hardly read anything that was written in the last century or so. I guess I need to get a bit more modern. I’ll keep a list of this handy so I can know what to check out when I got to the library.

    Harry Potter (The Marathon)

    We finally finished our “Harry Potter marathon” the other day. It took us about a month and a half so I don’t think it should/could still be labelled a marathon.

    After reading the books, the movies that I once considered so awesome really pale in comparison. I know that somethings need to change in the film adaptation but simple things like Harry and Hermione’s hair not being the way it was written in the book, the wizards wearing “Muggle clothing” instead of robes, the Death Eaters “flying” without brooms, made the movies lose a great deal of their authenticity. I think it was just laziness on the parts of writers, makeup artists, and directors…

    I was making comparisons straight through. I’m sure Pretty Boy was annoyed cause I wouldn’t let up. Sigh. Reading books have totally ruined my outlook of the movie franchise. And what sucks is, there is still the final one that I’ve got to watch (coming to theaters this July) and try very hard not to complain about. But like a true fanatic I’ll be standing in line waiting to be one of the first ones to see it. And in 3D no less… *smirks*…

    Harry, Ron and Hermione, we shall meet again!!!

    Movie Date Night and Harry Potter

    Well I don’t know if it can actually be called a date since Pretty Boy is there and I am here, but we ARE watching the same thing if that counts! I recently read all the Harry Potter books and now I am re-watching the movies. Mostly so I can point out how the movie people got it wrong (as they always do).

    I am so excited about this, its as if I am seeing the story for the very first time. I do feel like a geek, but it comforts me to know that Pretty Boy is even a bigger geek than I am. Tonight, its year one “Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone”. I bet most of you didn’t even know that was the original title of the movie/book and they changed it for the U.S. I guess cause they think everyone else was too dumb to understand what it meant. Exactly what the snooty British always think! Isn’t it funny how young they all were?

    Anyway, I am eating air popped  popcorn, with way to little salt and minimal butter. HEALTHY SNACKING ALL THE WAY! Yay me! Hmm, I am almost done with my popcorn and the movie hasn’t even started yet…