Dear Kaelan

Wow, I can’t believe you’re 18 already. It seemed like such a short time ago your mom was pregnant with you. I must admit that I loved you from the second I knew that you were coming. I would talk to you all the time. We would all be very excited to feel you kick and move.

I remember the night your mom’s water broke, weeks early (you were supposed to be born in January) but you were impatient. You were born around 8:00pm on this day, a full 18 years ago and you have changed all our worlds. I must admit that I wanted twins before I met you (could you even imagine?)

Because of your impatience, you had really bad asthma for the first year of your life. Spending at least a few days each month in the hospital. As a matter of fact, you spent your first birthday in the hospital. We were so sad to leave you in there, crying with your “Happy 1st Birthday” balloon hanging over your hospital crib. We all cried with you that day. I’m so glad that that was the last time that you ever had to spend a night at the hospital. Your asthma just went away.

I will never forget the times babysitting you when you mom had to go to work at the ass crack of dawn. And you and your fat little one year old hands would poke me in my eye to wake me up.

You had such a strong will. Always mischievous and insisting on your own way and getting into everything you could reach. You are so much like me, no wonder you drove everyone nuts!

I am proud of the man that you have grown into. I am proud that you are smart and interesting and you possess a beautiful soul. You turned out to be this great looking human with thoughts and ideas and hopes and dreams all of your own.

As you embark on your future, Black King, don’t be afraid to make mistakes. Don’t be afraid to love and to get your heart broken. Try new, weird and exciting things. Never conform and try to be someone or something you are not, because you are light and love and joy.

Ok, this is long and sappy and I must admit to shedding more than a few tears typing this out. But never forget that I love you. I have always loved you. I will always love you. Don’t ever be afraid to call me for anything whether it’s relationship advice, if your mom is pissing you off (cause I know she’s good for it), if you have an English paper you need me to edit or if you need me to send you bail money. I am always here for you. Continue to do great things, to forge your own path, to be weird and different and totally amazing.

Happy 18th Birthday Kaelan Kemaal [redacted] Bain!!


Happy Birthday, Domi

Today is my big sister’s birthday! Today she is an old lady 👵🏾. Today I wish her the happiest birthday ever. 

To you my darling big sister, I wish you nothing but joy and peace and the best life ever. I want you to know that I love you and I appreciate you more than you can ever know. Thank you for being the kind, generous, loving and truly awesome person that you are. I wouldn’t trade you for the world. I pray for you to have long life, success in everything that you do and I hope all of your wishes come true. 

You’re old as dirt now, so don’t turn up too loud! 

Here’s to Getting Older… -__-

My birthday is in a little less than an hour. I don’t know if I am excited or not. I doubt it. I usually look forward to my birthday, but this year I didn’t even look to see which day of the week it fell. I am over the whole “getting older” thing. I think I have had enough… It sucks even more because Pretty Boy is at work and he’ll spend most of the day at work so its that less special…

Anyway, I am expecting phone calls, emails, FB wall messages, text messages, whatever! The celebration will be on Friday.

Anyway, Happy Birthday to me!

Happy Birthday Kaelan!

I never thought that I would be a mother at 13. But that’s pretty much what happened. All of a sudden I had all kinda responsibility for this colicky, temper tantrum throwing, bow legged, hard headed little boy, who looked exactly like my baby pictures.

I remember walking around trying to calm him down as he would scream almost nonstop through the night- a school night I might add. Not falling asleep until he had tired himself out.

Oh and he was so stubborn! He’d kick and scream for hours sometimes if he didn’t get his way! And talk about FAT! He was weighing 20lbs by the time he was three months old!

Even though he may not have been an easy baby, he is certainly growing up to be the most brilliant and articulate kid that I know. And can we say handsome! :-)?

Well today is the birthday of my first and only (fingers crossed) child. So I want to wish him a very happy birthday and I can’t wait for you to get old enough so that I can tell your girlfriends many embarrassing stories from when you were little! I’ll ever love you darling, more than you can ever know! I hope you had an awesome day!