9 Things I Hate About EVERYONE!

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time…. I
know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at
my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire
room for the tv remote because they refuse to walk to the tv and
change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it
too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can’t eat it?

4. When people say "it’s always the last place you look". Of course
it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you’ve found it?!
Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!

5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No
Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?"…. Didn’t really
give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?


7. When something is ‘new and improved!’. Which is it? If it’s new,
then there has never been anything before it. If it’s an
improvement, then there must have been something before it,
couldn’t be new.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the
longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that’s


9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus
come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?


Oh! Turks And Caicos!!

"Beautiful by nature" is the slogan of these islands, and INDEED they ARE beautiful. But the PEOPLE of Turks and Caicos have MUCH to learn from its beautiful, warm, inviting beaches and its gorgeous landscape.
Since arriving here about a year ago, I have found the Turks and Caicos Islanders to be a selfish, predjudiced, petty, meddlesome bunch. They take pride on talking about matters that don’t concern them in such a wide scale that it amazes me. Most of them know nothing about common courtesy and etiquette, and a smile from them can be considered a MAJOR acheivement.
I believe that it may be something in the air, because even those from other countries get "T.I.zed", becoming stupid and petty just like those that spent all of their lives here. Woman here fight, LITERALLY, fight for men, like cats and dogs.
I have never encountered such lowness of human character anywhere else,that I have encountered in Turks and Caicos. People here go out of thier ways to see you fail and then have a blast talking about it! All for the almighty GOSSIP! I have heard things about myself in the street that I knew NOTHING about. Well I guess it is all the perils of growing up in a small community. NO ONE is immune from the FREEDOM OF SPEECH. I myself may even be guilty of spreading a story or two.
To all the people in Turks And Caicos that talk about me without knowing ANY of the facts about me!! Only GOD can judge me. To all of the guys that claim things that they KNOW aren’t true, YOUR DAY WILL COME!! And as for the girls that spreading rumours about my alledged pregnancy, thanks for telling me, I HAD NO IDEA!!
"A Lie Can Make It Halfway Around The World Before The Truth Even Has It’s Shoes On."  I am living in the "Eat or Be Eaten" Jungle Of The Turks and Caicos Islands.
In the words of The GREAT Sizzla Kalanji
People will say this and that
they just can’t stop me now!


"Don’t you mix me up in your dirty game

You’re only trying to tarnish my name!!

 "Why should I wanna hurt my brother just for vanities?
Why should I wanna hurt my sister for the least of things?
When I know I and I lives and reign and rule over everything
Nothing nor no-one gonna stop us now from doing the right thing"


"They can’t keep a good man down
always keep a smile when they want me to frown
Keep the vibes and I stood my grounds
They will never ever take my crown
Who Jah bless I say no man curse
things get better when they thought it would be worst
Here comes the officer asking for ah search
They found no weapons just only a draw first"

I AM SOLID AS A ROCK THEY JUST CAN’T STOP ME NOW!! I am NOT going to let Turks and Caicos and its inhabitants get the best of me!! Cause"I’m A Survivor"

Love or something like it!

I am ready for love!!
Like seriously though, this being on my own, being single and playing the field gig is getting kinda tired. I think its time for someone to tame me!!
Just recently I have seen the love of some tested, tried  (by me sad to say), and I guess it was proven true. Love like that I can respect. Love that is imperfectly perfect, where they stick it out through the good and the bad moments. I WANT SOME OF THAT!!
This "Ready to settle down"  thing with me comes and goes alot though, cause playing the field I have found more than my share of grimy dudes. Those that try to date everyone in the family at the same time (All of u know who u are), the ones that lie about the time of day just because they can, those that will ask you for sex before they even ask you for your name!!
I wonder why that ever elusive thing called love continues to forever linger just beyond my grasp! I had brief encounters with it, and sometimes I understand why people do the dumb things that they do to hold onto it. Its a real beautiful feeling, those butterflies, at the mere mention of your lover’s name!! I never got far enough into the whole love thing to go beyond the "butterflies" stage before, for many different reasons, it had to end. I want to make it past those butterflies though. Can SOMEONE get me past those damn insects?
There is so much I can’t decipher about love .Why must it be so hard to get? And if u are lukcy enough to obtain it, why must if be so hard to keep? Why must those that don’t deserve it, be the ones that are loved so whole heartedly? Why am I not getting it, or atleast reciprocating it to those that are giving it? Well I guess all good things deserve SOME effort…Maybe I am just to lazy to put forth that effort.
I refuse to go a quest in search for love. I will just sit here and wait for God to send it my way, when He thinks I need it. (Jah, if u reading this, I am ready now!) But then again, faith without works is dead isn’t it? So maybe I DO need to get up off my ass and search for it.
Another thing that may be hindering my progress to this "love" is I think my criteria is hardly acheivable by any man! No it isn’t, If honesty, maturity and trustworthyness are qualities that a man DOESN’T possess, then he DOESN’T deserve me!!
I WON’T settle for ANYTHING! I AM worth the best this world has to offer. If a man DOESN’T believe that, then he is OBVIOUSLY NOT the one that I am ready to love!

Untitled :)

Yea its REAL late or early depends on whether you are just going to bed or just waking up I guess. Anyway, I slept earlier and I guess I am suffering for a touch of insomnia (I was THIS = CLOSE to putting AMNESIA instead of INSOMNIA..that woulda been a faux pais no? Lol I better stop before I use something outta context and end up sounding like an idiot!)
Well if n e one reading this I am OBVIOUSLY bored!!! Oh and I am going to look for a job soon too…FA REAL!! Kahsheriff said if I had something to do in the daytime, it may make my nights a little less unbearably dull..I hope so. But then I don’t know what I want to do…but by the process of elimination I know what I DON’T want to do which makes my job of finding a job easier. I need to find SOMETHING to break the relentless monotony that is my life! For the last two months it has been like the SAME THING EVERYDAY. I am goin to go crazy…well crazier!!
Anyway wish me luck!! I am goin to bed!!


Dear Garnique,
Keep changing numbers. Damn u were the one that gave me the last one ya know!! DAMN PLEASE just leave me alone dread!! What the fuck is ur issue? Show this one to ur mother too!! U always comin up with ways to contact me. Messing with me, creating email addresses and everything!! I KNEW that was u!!I know the way Michael speaks to me online!!You know what all that u are goin to cause me do is go after him to spite u!! And if u were SO confident that he was over me u WOULDN’T be goin through all a this!!! All I asked u to do was leave me alone dread!! How fuckin hard is that??I TRYIN to ignore u and ur pugnacious companions!! What the FUCK u want from me!!! Is it that u want me to want him so badly that in ur MESSED up head u think I am after him?? DREAD!! Seriously, STOP MAKING ME UR WORLD.It’s like everyday I am te reason u get up in the morning. U wake up to think about me, think of ways to talk to me, think of places where I am goin to be, what I am goin to wear and everything!!DON’T EVER BRING YA FAT SLUSHY ASS ON MY PROPERTY!! STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME PLEASE!!!
Aja Douglas

R.I.P Merril McClean Dorsett

There is nothing that anyone can say that can make u feel better when someone that u love dies. Nothing said can take the pain away or bring them back so it just seems…meaningless….
Bui Merril I woulda never thought that YOU would die. Something about u just made me feel that u were invincible. You were young, but you had the wisdom of a 75 year old. You were just too smart!! I can remember telling ppl, “I know this dude who can talk a little about EVERYTHING. If u want to talk about Maths he knows Math, If u want to talk about cartoonz, he can talk about cartoonz as well”.
Man words fail me!! I can’t exactly explain what I am feeling now. It is almost as if a part of me is missing now. We had plans for when I went back to Freeport in November. I made u promise to write it down in ur calendar and everything. TWO a dem days were already scheduled to be mine!! I remember at the end of the conversation u told me that u would see me in November if God spared ur life. And I told you that you had better not die before I get there. You told me that you would atleast wait til after I left. I WAS COUNTING ON THAT!!
I am on ur memorial website now, listening to Boyz 2 Men “It’s So Hard To Say Goodbye” for like the hundreth time!! Man aye, I know this feels like some sick joke that u are playin on everyone! I had SO much respect for you. I used to make my moms listen to u when u were a sportscaster for Cool 96. I can remember u calling me on ur cellphone and talkin to me when u were on ur way home from a dominoe game, or when u were up from the table. Those late night early morning phone calls when we talked about everything n nuttin. You helping me into adulthood, and instinctively knowing whether I needed a shoulder to cry on or someone to tell me to suck it up and be a woman about it. That “No Regrets” philosphy that u got me living by helped me get over many a dumb thing I did. I know u wouldn’t like all this fuss goin on over u ya know, but u were loved and respected by SO many that everyone wants the world to know that u were a diamond amongst rhinestones!!
I can’t make it to ur funeral! I won’t be able to see that flaming red hair n e more, or see ur face ever again. And I just want to be able to see u ONE more time, just once! They say that u don’t know what u got until its gone, but bui u KNEW I appreciated u. I wouldn’t hesitate to tell u that. I just wish I could see u once more.
I see ur name with R.I.P. next to it and the realization that you are gone just hits me hard EVERYTIME. It can’t be possible, how can it be possible?? WHY IS IT POSSIBLE??
To a fallen soldier, the smartest man I knew, to a dominoe champion, my life mentor R.I.P. I hope God knew what he was doin cause it een start makin n e sense to me yet!!


OH MY GOODNESS I just had to change my phone number!! I was getting called from this one girl. She is jealous of me. She called me all the ugly and the creature and  all the hoe and the bitch and the slut, and she told me things about myself that only my gynecologist would know!!Sweetheart don’t hate me cause I am beautiful, hate me cause u man wants me!!!